Oh, it’s delightful to have ambitions. I’m so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to them– that’s the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting.
How beautiful is this quote? Sometimes I think about the crazy bucket list I have in my head and think that I need a reality check. How am I meant to travel, graduate, work, write, make music, have a family etc. etc. etc…. there are so many things that I want to do in life, and definitely not enough time to do them all. Am I just setting myself up for disappointment?
Over the last few years, I’ve had the opportunity to cross a number of BIG things off my ‘list’. I went overseas for the first (and second!) time, visited a new state in Australia, worked a job that I love and made new friends at university – but along with these things I’ve experienced disappointment (often with myself) about missed opportunities and lost ambitions. At the end of the day, it comes down to this: when God closes a door (or we miss the opening) he’ll open a window. I know it sounds sort of cliché, but I’m a big believer that cliché’s are what they are for a reason.
Finishing uni this semester is putting a number of new questions in my mind. Will I get a job in my chosen field? Will I have to move far away? What else does next year hold? Some of these things are hard, I won’t lie. Jobs in journalism and publishing are far and few between, and the realist in me is screaming out ‘WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?!’ while the planner in me yells, ‘you’ve always had a plan… what’s the plan now?’
Sometimes, uncertainty is beautiful when it comes to ambition. It frees us up to dream, to stop us limiting ourselves, to be wonderfully ignorant and try our best to achieve the things we want, or feel that we’re meant to do in life. I think uncertainty also forces us to trust and to pray with confidence.
As L.M Montgomery said, ambitions do ‘make life so interesting’.
— Lauren x