Times are changing…
As I sat on a Sydney train yesterday for an hour and a half, diary open on my lap, pen between my teeth and mind all over the place, I had the sudden realisation that this year is one of the most uncertain years of my life so far. Never have I faced so much change in 365 exciting, crazy and ‘new’ kind of days.
I’m one of these people who takes life one big event at a time. For example, being a November birthday, I can never contemplate the idea of Christmas until my birthday’s over, & when it’s February and there’s hot cross buns in the shops, I try my best to ignore them until March.
Everything over the last few months has been Europe-oriented, and I could manage thinking as far as our wedding that’s coming up in July (130 days away, but who’s counting?) and beyond that was a somewhat uncertain cloud of nothing but the hopeful expectation of marital bliss and a perfect job opportunity. Sitting there with my diary open on my lap, I began to realise that there are another 166 days after the 18th of July that I hadn’t given much thought to, and I had no idea what God had planned for us. With Peter’s post graduate studies on the horizon, searching for a job that fits a pretty specific brief, and knowing that we may have to move and start again, creates a long list of unknowns that frankly, scare me a lot more than I thought they would.
In reflection, the comforting thing about change is that it’s never totally foreign – it’s been there, it just hasn’t been big enough or scary enough to take control of my life. As I think about change and the foundations of my life, I’m reminded that the core stuff is never going to change – and maybe I need a bit of change shaking up my life to rely on those unchanging foundations.
Hebrews 13:8 – “Jesus Christ is the same, yesterday, today and forever.”
I love the way the bible gives us a little slap of encouragement sometimes. Joshua 1:9 starts by saying, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.” I feel like he’s saying, “you silly girl… I’ve told you these things but you never listen. You can be stronger and more capable than you think if you have a little faith.” It finishes with a gentle, “Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
I’ll get back to the Europe stories soon, but I thought I’d share that reflection in the meantime. Let me know if you have any reflections of your own in this area – I’d love to hear them so we can encourage each other with our experiences!